heart talk to ownself

..sometimes I am so confused, I do not know who is right and who is wrong.



What should be done, what should not be done.

Some has so much ego, some has so much humility.



Is it a case of my wrongdoings, faults, errors? Or is it a case of the people around me whose behaviour and character made me believe it was my fault?



Some people change very quickly. Judging spontaneously in one hasty moment.

Some rely on trust and understanding. Judging over a certain period of time.



Am I of such person who is utmost terrible at working in groups?

Or is it the people around me who are always judging me that way?



These recent happenings made me doubt my own capability and ability.



I may be more of the observer type. I do not rush in for the kill nor pushing the front line for the headlines.
I am more of a game reader. To observe and make decisions based on critical analysis.



Slow, yes. I am slow. But I prefer placement over speed.
Passive, yes, I am passive. I prefer reacting over lunging.



Is it my way of thinking and doing things been the reason all this shit is happening to me right now?
I am not the initiative type. Perhaps this has been the loose screw?



I am losing a lot of trust and believe of the people around me.

The balance is needed. This cannot continue like it is now.



It is a sad case. Disappointing.